A Rockstar Life

Graduated and moving on...

2005-06-20T15:57:00.000-07:00

Wow i havent posted in awhile and joanie i just read that last comment of yours and decided its time for the benster to come back. I have graduated officially and man was that a difficult year.. I WAS SOO LAZY.. in retrospect i had like 2 classes a day and still didnt do my homework! I really need to work on that especially going to college now. Im so nervous about my future and what it holds, but I can only trust that God has the best for me. I think im going to go to CMC for a year and then either decide to go down to Florida or Boulder. I honestly am feeling a lil bit lonely.. I miss Greg and Jeff. I miss Emily (being my old best friend). Its all really saddening. I feel like i'd be happiest if i was in florida, but i cant be there, so im here. I dont want this to be a depressing post... So ill tell you about all the exciting things that have happened, I've been jeeping alot with different people. Tyller and sara and jeff. Rosie and Genesis. Isaac. Sara Greg tyller. And probably more.. but i forget all the times. They've been awesome, jeeping up on a mtn and making camp fires and laughing till our heads hurt. I think we almost we're beat up by some people too.. but o well they were really drunk! haha it was actually quite entertaining... Well its been awhile and im sorry for that.. miss you all, love you all... hasta luego

-Christians Brothers and Sisters-

2005-01-22T13:05:00.000-08:00

I love how i can put anything on this blog! I hate how people can chastize me for stupid things... I can rhyme when i feel like it. Since when do i comment on others saying, " that was terrible, do do not post like this, do it like this"!!!! I can type whatever i want, this page is under my control... OK im popping out of anger mode now, guyz its been a long time since i have been online. Obviously im not going to ryhme on this one...lol. I stayed over at Gregs last night and we didnt sleep until 4 am, so im a bit exhausted. Random: i hope everything is ok with you Genesis. i love you, and only hope for great things in your life!

rhyme on a dime, i aint commited no crime

2005-01-17T16:05:00.000-08:00

i cant stop, i feel im gona drop, maybe ill land on top, im way to hot, untouchable, you fell for me, im a jelly bee, hold on to your tea, im rocking the boat, we'll stay afloat, dont make me conceded, ill look for the treated, and help me God, im just another man, of the land, place it in my hand, and ill teach it, preach it, get down on my knees wit it, cant defeat it, in land of rubble, we're all in trouble, touched rock bottom, still up for sodom, Hussein is fair game, jury it up, and fill his cup, trap em, snap em, break him down, push him around town, show him the pain, see this all wasnt fair game, we're all human....

2005-01-08T14:13:00.000-08:00

Schools IN

2005-01-03T20:02:00.000-08:00

unfortunately, i am in school again! Stress is like an influx into my heart, and i think i could cry...lol its not really that bad. Two hours of class a day, i think i can handle it. I cant wait for many things, like the weekend for one, and the prayer room to open for another. Newayz just thought i should get on here and say something special. You're special to me, whoever is reading this....

Lacking sleep and more beautiful things

2004-12-27T23:34:00.000-08:00

Guyz im back! and ready for action. I just rode in the car for 15 hours, and i slept 13 of them, so im not tired at all. This makes my heading a oxymoron, newayz I am ready to tell you something, but i dont know what to say. I will tell you about my trip! It was great seeing and being with my family. We spent most of our time at my grandparents (dads side) and it was a blast, I hung out a lot with my lil cousins, Blake and Alec. They're the coolest kids let me tell ya. We stayed at the marriot one night with them and went to a water park and ice skating, it was tons of fun. On Christmas eve my family attended Grace community church, and it had a superb choir. Let me add this church was enormous, some where between 3-5 thousand members. I loved it. I think in this last week God has been calling my attention to many things. One big blessing i have and noticed more than ever was my great family and how they support me and are there for me all the time. God also showed me how i need to keep many of them in prayer. I guess i saw the need b4, but i now see it even more. I was able to visit my great grandma Gerber (91) and it was very hard to see her. Allsymers (not sure on spelling) has taken over her and she cant remember a thing. I had to introduce myself 5 times in a 30 min. period. I was grieved to see that a child of God was sooo full of fear and I became very close to balling several times during the visit. But I cant end it here, My mother and I grasped her hands tightly and prayed for protection and assurance and just for His power in her life even at her old age and many more things.. LET me tell ya, by the end of it she was saying "praise God" like a million times, and forgot all about her fears and worries. This was a great experiance. Ok, but now im getting tired and im probably going out boarding tommorow so im out to mi cama ahora.

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its been a respite

2004-12-08T18:49:00.000-08:00

Guys im sad to say that i have not written in a while, and unfortunately that is because i have lacked much life. In fact, you could go as far as to say that i was dead, and now i feel alive again. That may be a little extreme, but i was very sick and it drained the life out of me. Jaded and having a nasty cough, I laid for 2 and a whopping half a day. Wippa woppa chici bang, bet thats not in your vocab. Neways that was a sudden out burst of energy..lol I really want to get back involved in the prayer, it seems like i lack something, not being there. God is such a great God that he has me in this church. He knows exactly what I need and he's using the prayer room in a very big way in my life. The biggest thing is just getting me in a routine and having a awesome time with Him. U cant say that you dont believe in God, you have to at least check if He's real. And then you'll find out He is and your heart will be grabbed, and you'll feel like your floating on the clouds. He is the most amazing! Ok and another thing that does nothing to my flow, but rather destroys it. I LOST MY WALLET. Help me!!! I g2g, spanish h/w is calling. Adios.

2004-12-06T17:21:00.000-08:00

The bleach is getting old, Im thinking a hair cut is an order!
cant touch this...lol

2004-12-06T17:17:00.000-08:00

checker out, standing tall

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Turkey...can they stand it?

2004-11-25T11:36:00.000-08:00

obviously they cant..lol, cuz they're chopped and sent to us to eat. Its a punn. Newayz, happy Thanksgiving you guyz. I encourage you guyz to be thanking God for what you have. You may think you have nothing, but I know God gives something to everyone. Im in Colorado Springs eating turkey with some friends (just to let ya know). You know what... I would really like to put pics on this site, maybe i will be able to soon, i just have to download that file i think.. well ill be back. peace to mis amigos.

Consider a Fast

2004-11-23T23:25:00.000-08:00

R u kidding...I could not fast, but i was afraid of the mexican food. Let me tell you though that they have very good food, AND VERY GOOD, GREAT, AWESOME COCA COLA. lol. I really would like to write about mexico scenes, but it would take to much thought, so just ask me in person. Let me say this though, God really changed my heart for Mexico, like seriously i have a huge passion for the people there, and if God called me to be a missionary there....i could easily go..I love MEXICO and MEXICANS!!

The ultimate Blush

2004-11-23T23:10:00.000-08:00

ok, sorry guyz, I have published the last 2 posts in the wrong order..."stupid dummy"..you might say. Back to the topic, I met a girl and she caught my eyes at first sight. You're probably thinking that it was because of her looks, but that was only a tiny part, she looked american to me and it kindy shocked me to see another American. This came about at a baseball game in Mexico, and I tried to ignore this first encounter. Later on, during the game, Isaac and I were walking around with Stephanie and Jennifer (you will read about them later) and we came upon these two girls. I did not want to say anything or meet them or anything, because I am too shy for that, but they came to us and greeted us! IN MEXICO YOU GREET WITH A KISS. Let me give you some names real quick....Elis and Edly. They were really cool and I'm glad we met them. This was a very crazy experience though, let me say, I became beat red as I greeted edly (the girl i first saw). Ok, im guessing that there is not much flow to this paragraph, but you can fiqure it out....

A Kiss or Hug- the Benster now gives both!

2004-11-23T23:07:00.000-08:00

Well guyz i must say Mexico gave me many blushes and smiles. I was kissing girls left and right, crazy i know. Some of you are probably saying, "that'll be the only kiss you ever get"....lol i hear ya. I almost kissed a guy too, whoa, that was a close one.

Como se dice....No se

2004-11-23T22:56:00.000-08:00

Yes fellos and jellos, I was in Mexico, that i was indeed. Need i say more, maybe...I loved it, it was awesome. I increased my spanish vocabulary, grew in my friendships with Isaac, Marie, and Jennifer. Im very happy about that! Thats not all folks, I met a great family, called the Pratts. Yes, they were great. Pepe and Claudia (the parents), michelle, chris, stephanie, and jennifer (the kids) were a very enjoyable company. Chris was probably the one who I talked to the most, because his english was very good. Chris and I played a lot of Halo 2 might i add for all you halo fans...lol. Michelle was a funny girl (she made me laugh alot) and fun to be around. Stephanie is 10 years old and she didnt know much english, but she tried her best and that really blessed me. Stephanie can easily put a smile on my face, i dunno how, but shes a sweetie. Jennifer (6 yrs. old) was the same way, and she could really bless anyone by her presence. Ok, jeez that took a long time to write and i didnt even write about some of the themes.

2004-11-15T15:25:00.000-08:00

Another Good drink to the soul

2004-11-08T20:15:00.000-08:00

Freedom sounds like a good thing, but when you feel it in your heart it's awesome. I am saying this because I just came back from the prayer room and have recieved much of it. God had my mother and I praying hard for past hurts and what not. It was awesome!! I was feeling really depressed earlier today, I dunno why, I almost felt like I could drown out and sleep through the rest of my life and be happy..O has my heart changed. I can't explain how God is working so much in me and my family, such deep things, its great. This is vitally important for unity in the church, obviously. So God is definetly using the prayer room in my familys life. I know that the prayer room really gives me peace and is place to be in solitude....I love that... so ya, I'm not getting tired of the prayer room (lol), and I know that i will have more stories to tell soon, that God will give to me from that place...Sweet Jesus, thank you!

P.S. if you find mistakes, o well, Im not the type to correct a paper (schools enough for me right now), I just speak from my heart...so at least you know its genuine. Lata bros and sistas

2004-11-05T12:16:00.000-08:00

Tonight is the night

2004-11-04T18:28:00.000-08:00

Ok, so God's been working in my heart. I mean God fills all the holes and voids that anyone could ever have, and ive been praying for some of these and its been good. I have had a sense that I need to ask him if NSA is right for me, cuz i think he does not want that for me, but im afraid to ask him. God is awesome though, and whatever it is, its going to be good

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late night party

2004-11-03T21:07:00.000-08:00

Dudes, so like tonight im tired and wired, because I just spent a couple hours with my Great God. I was at the 24/7 prayer room, and it was a really good time. Lets see, well its wierd how I can type how my heart feels, but i would feel so gay to say these things outloud....wierd. Its been amazing, I have written a couple songs (Im no rockstar by the way), and I have really felt God in and through them. My heart really has been changed lately, just to let you peeps in on it... I feel so much joy compared to weeks before. I have prayed and sought to bless people in the IDS school by just making them all feel special, because in my heart they are all very special people to me, and I want to let it out of me for them to see also.